To my Alisha .........

-I met your mom last week and she really misses u alot bacha. She is scared to go back home and put your toys away. Tell me Alisha, how can i help?
Your mom has done alot for me, has taken care of me and now that it's my turn, i am unable to do or say anything to her.
She was telling us that you wanted to keep the halloween decoration on the day of your accident and your mom didn't let you. She was angry at herself for making you upset, im sure bacha you understand why she removed them .... rite??? She also kept a toy bag for you, she told me you were in love with it, she made alot of plans of giving it to you on the following weekend.
There is sooo much she wanted to say and sooo much plans she had for you .... oh!! Btw your baba misses u too .... alot!! He doesn't talk alot but he is tryng to be strong for your mama.
Abheeha even misses u ... she miss playing with you.
All your Aunts, your grand parents and everyone who even met you for few seconds, can't stop saying that you were an angel .......
We all are trying real hard in taking care of your mama .... she still has the plaster from the accident, but she is getting better.
Alisha beta .... you are closer to Allah, can you please ask Him to give strength to your parents to survive your loss? They need all the prayers they can get ...

Lastly, i took some pani puri for your mom last week and she loved it .... i will be visiting her again today. I will say Hi from your end.
Love u beta!!

We are NOT invincible!!! n That's OK!!!!

.
Ever wondered, why we have sooo many people around us all the bloody time?? Y they constantly want to know of how u are doing in life? Y they care?
I think i know!!
Two weeks back, i had a different theory .... i always use to think that because everyone is soooo bored in their own little world, they find other ppl's life interesting. Its like watching a soap opera!!
Then, life took a turn, my thoughts took a U turn and made me realize that everything doesn't have to be all negative!!
We have ppl in our life all the bloody time, coz we need them to be there ..... we need them to constantly remind us with their every fall n success that we are NOT invincible!!! We need them to remind us that even if we are not .... there is always room to get up, brush it off and be back in the game!!!
Them asking us, about our life is an assurance to themselves that "Life's not that bad!!" (Depending on wat side of life we are in).
Its all a vicious circle!!
Every wondered, how most of our questions get answered by somebody's mistakes? or their success? I really think that God exists in all of us, trying to communicate. Trying to guide us!!
All we have to do is just listen and be there for eachother!!
..

Moments in life!!

.
The moment of silence,
The moment of knowing, who you really are.

The moment of acceptance,
The single moment of realization.

The moment of loneliness,
The moment of knowing somebody’s importance.

The moment of success,
The moment of feeling invincible.

The moment of failure,
The moment of believing in His existence.

Khumar

Message of PEACE from an 11yr old!!

.
.

This Poem was written by a boy who was just 11 yrs old at that time, Mattie passed away at an age of 13, just three weeks before his 14th b'day. He was an inspirational, and even though he is not around anymore, he left us the gift of his poems. And i recommend everyone to have a look at his website. http://www.mattieonline.com/index.htm

Mattie Stepanek's Heartsongs

For Our World

By Mattie J.T. Stepanek

We need to stop.

Just stop.

Stop for a moment…

Before anybody

Says or does anything

That may hurt anyone else.

We need to be silent.

Just silent.

Silent for a moment…

Before we forever lose

The blessing of songs

That grow in our hearts.

We need to notice.

Just notice.

Notice for a moment…

Before the future slips away

Into ashes and dust of humility.

Stop, be silent, and notice…

In so many ways, we are the same.

Our differences are unique treasures.

We have, we are, a mosaic of gifts

To nurture, to offer, to accept.

We need to be.

Just be.

Be for a moment… Kind and gentle, innocent and trusting,

Like children and lambs,

Never judging or vengeful

Like the judging and vengeful.

And now, let us pray,

Differently, yet together,

Before there is no earth, no life,

No chance for peace.

September 12, 2001©

Matthew Joseph Thaddeus Stepanek

.

MUSIC!!

..
How strange that just a piece of music can take you back to a part of your memory that you now barely think of anymore.

It brings back every single detail, and feelings that u had at that very moment.

I think, no matter where i am, no matter what i am doing, no matter how tough my life is, music is the only thing that can take me anywhere i want to go!!

It connects me back to those ppl who are no longer around me, it takes me back to that very living room where i was introduced to some really good music, to my that security dispatch room, where i use to spend straight 12 hours and the only thing that use to keep me up was the radio and takes me back to those walks from home to uni n to work at some -ve degree Fahrenheit.

Takes me to those endless drives on HWY 169 and HWY 118 ..... :S

I still remember how scared I was when I took my first flight to states. How excited I was when I met my sister and my niece. How I didn’t like taco bell ….. and how everything tasted funny. The only thing I liked for few weeks was Long John Silver … and I believe that was one of those very last restaurants I visited b4 leaving.

I was shit scared on my first night at dorms …. I felt that somebody would definitely kick my ass at our floor common loo. How lucky I was to have amazing roommates throughout my life in states. How I had almost 10 ppl helping me in my orientation at school. My first job, my first snow fall, my first tornado, my first crush and my first heart break …….

Wonderful memories and I’m blessed to have them!!! :)
.

MUST ....... HAVE........ SNYDERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.
On one fine Monday afternoon, say around 2:14 P.M my dearest friend/xRoommate came online... and below is what she had to share:

2:14 PM
Roomie: RUBBBBBU!!!
2:15 PM
Roomie: guess what im EATING!!!
me: yes???????????? actually, noooooooooooooo
Roomie: SNYDERS!!!
me: :S
Roomie: i found it in a grocery store here!!!
me: I KNEW IT ....
Roomie: CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!!
me: this will not make me happy :S NOW i want some tooo :S
2:16 PM
me: which flavor?
Roomie: jalapeno

n that is all i needed to know .................... =(

I MISS YOU BUFFALO WING SNYDERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.

Mirror Mirror

.

Mirror Mirror

by Leslie:

"Mirror-mirror on the wall
show me what you see
if you really reflect it all
show every piece of me

behind my eyes, behind my smile
deep into my soul
linger for a little while
show me all you know

not just a figure standing here
reveal all that's inside
show me, even though I fear
here and now, it's time

show
the bruised and battered place in me
the piece that just can't cope
the part that longs to be set free
the side where life's a joke

the innocence hiding behind the sin
the adult inside the child
the heart that won't let anyone in
the piece of me that's mild

the place in me that's always red
the part that's forever blue
the side that follows what is said
the piece that's always confused

the place in me that thinks I’m right
the part that knows I’m wrong
the side that's bloated up with pride
the piece that can't go on

the coward inside the fighter
the genius next to the dumb
the part that's drunk with laughter
the side that shies from fun

so, mirror-mirror on the wall
I’ll step back so I can see
if you really reflect it all
and show every piece of me"

********