Clueless .... AGAIN!!!!

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I hate those few moments in life when your past crawls back inside your mind and every single detail runs like a movie.

I hate those moments when every fukin thing reminds you of those handful number of ppl that u REALLY want to forget.

I hate when a complete stranger say something soooo stupid and meaningless and THAT meaningless thing fuks up ur brains.....

I mean what is wrong with me????? y can't i just let it go and be at peace????? y can't i ignore and not let ppl get to me .....

Wat am i doing wrong???? THIS very question has been around me for quite sometime. Do i try too hard?? Or am I too stubborn to not to dance on their every beat?? N y should I??

I’m at a phase in life where everything seems temporary.... Terms like "FOREVER" sounds BS.... Romantic movies piss me off ....... and meeting new ppl just tires me out.

Rain makes me cry and beach drains out my energy!!! Two single sight of the nature that use to bring back life in me..... Now takes away every little smile that i tried collecting over a period of time.

I need a makeover….. a makeover of my soul…… BUT HOW???? God I’m so clueless….. wat do I want????

Am I being ungrateful?? Really? Is that it??? No can’t be…… I always feel contented for having such loving and caring family, and friends. How can I be ungrateful??

We all make mistakes…. I do get that part…. And I keep telling myself that “forgive and forget” works like a miracle, and I have practiced all that but……. How can I not get that to work this time??? I feel broken …. I feel my weak knees on the ground and I don’t find the need to bring myself back up again.

I was an eagle and now I’m chained to the memories of my past … I need to break free … I need to fly again …. I need to get my “ready to fight” passion back!!!

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