Thursday, September 11, 2008

My God Damn Conscience ...

Today if you open up any news website, the top ten stories will be about wars, hunger, deaths, and on religion. There is soo much happening around the world, in your Country, Your City and even around your neighborhood that I think its hard not to notice.

From my childhood, i have always thought about the very purpose of our existence. Why are we here? Why was i born? I see many people around me, doing there 9 to 5 jobs, coming home to their family, wearing nice trendy clothes, listening funky music, enjoying the nature, watching movies ............ i mean doing everything in their life and not worrying about these questions. I sometime wonder that maybe they do think about these things but never mention or think loud about them. They getup in the morning do their daily job and at nite feel good about themselves.

I tried doing that, and i failed!! Badly!!!!! For me, going to work was a drag, as i use to think y am i doing this??? To earn some bucks... Maybe send some money home ... and then wat??? Maybe do this for the rest of my life ...... n that's when i use to feel all suffocated!!! I use to n still feel angry to myself, that why can't i be and think like an average person!! Y do i have to question myself again and again that there is more to life then just this.

I need a purpose in my life that would help millions!!! How do i do that?? Be a writer? i suck in writing ... it takes me forever to express my feelings, and also i think i am not doing justice to my thoughts when it comes to putting them down on a piece of paper. (See!! how complicated i can get)

ERGH!!!!!! Who am i??? y do i get worried if something is happening at another continent .. Or anybody's house.... y do i feel i should do something about all the happenings around the world, y do i feel responsible......

5 comments:

the free spirit said...

well these thoughts will never go away they may become easier to ignore or you keep away from these things. As for work...it sucks unless u do something that gives you personal satisfaction. We r just not the work aholic types hehehhe

Khumar Raza said...

true my friend true!!! we all know its not rocket science ..... MY FRIEND!!!! :P

skywalker said...

We all come into this world for a purpose in life. Everyone do thier part in order for this world to move forward(doing good) or backward(doing evil).

Then there are few who come into this world to help the others-the needy, the laim, the poor, etc.. They help what ever way they can, so the needy can be productive to this world (society) and can enjoy the beauty of this nature.

But we all do our part within our own capability. For example, some one doing 9-5 job give their time and effort to make their company produce products or services that others can use it. This accomplishes their purpose in life. Let's say, one who wants to help others by providing an education to the NEEDY. Then they require the following products or services: Transportation, building materials to build a school, land, books, tools etc. But these things just don't appear from the sky or grow out of a trees (as some religeous leaders may proclaim! I love the 72 virgins proposal:-)). Some company have to produce them. Guess who does this? Yes! You guess it right-The 9to5 people! This allows the very few who want to help the needy. The 9to5 get their reward in monetary funds so they to can enjoy their life by listening to music, spending time with their family and so forth.

However, then comes the evil people under the guise of religion/politician/conartist etc.. Oh please! don't get me started.....:-)

CONCLUSION: We need to focus in ourself and our purpose in life, instead of comparing us to the others and their way of life. Do what your heart(The God, The Nature, The Wisdom, however you want to name it.. who reside in you!) tels you or leads you to do. As long as we do our part whole heartedly without harming anyone along the way, then we can be assured, your life MISSION is ACCOMPLISHED.
LG-Inshalla!

Khumar Raza said...

I do agree with u ... whole heartedly, as i just learned this few days back ... :)

Anonymous said...

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