A Road Not Taken

Missed ya!!!

2011-11-14T01:15:00.007+05:00

AND IM BACK IN THE GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My current fav. music: (Have to talk abt music .... its a must ... always is).

Rihanna - We Found Love - ft. Calvin Ha
Cher Lloyd - With ur Love - Ft Mike Posner
Kelley Clarkson - Mr. Know it all.
Daniel Bedingfield - If you are not the one.
Kasabian - Underdog
The Script - Breakeven
The ready Set - Live Like Woe
Sugarland - Stuck like Glue
Christina Perri - Jars of Hearts ... (Heartbreakin .. but really nice!).
Ok Go - Here it goes again.

Books: well ............ just read a couple ......

Chicken Soup for the Pet Lover's Soul.
All Marketers Are Liars.
The Social Media Bible. (Currently reading).

Wat's life been like for all these months??? well, left my old job ..... continuing my hosting job in a Pet Show. Workin as a Free Lancer ... Strategy manager for a company. Still doing the Social Media Consultation work .... and just started a Non Profit Org.

Im liking every bit of it .... everyday i get to learn something new .... everyday i get to meet new ppl ... and everyday i get to know something abt myself. Im pushing myself as far as i can. & it feels great!!!!

i have taken a huge challenge on myself ..... my next blog will reveal if i did well or not. Please pray that everything turns out well.

till my next blog .....

Something happenin around me ....

2011-04-19T19:46:00.002+05:00

When God Speaks

There is no way I will let you go,
I will hold you & I will hide you

Wait! I know you are all ready to go,
But hear me out, I have all the reasons to stop you,

I have & will always love you,
I have & will always fight for you,
I will smile with you & I will cry with you,

Stay back!! There is just so much to say,
Stay back!! There is just so much I want to see in you,
So many occasions, birthdays, weddings, holidays..

No! I don’t want to know what’s best for you,
Stop! For ones, please just please listen to me.

I have protected you from all the harms,
I have always been there for you,
You cannot make this decision on your own,
I say No!! just wait .. & listen

I Fight, I Cry, I Argue, I Plea
But when God Speaks …….
My beloved is ready to leave!!

Khumar Raza

I'm gud .... n u???

2011-04-13T12:55:00.004+05:00

Hey there blogyyy ........

Missed ya .... guess what, im almost done with my program shoots ... and enjoyed every bit of it.

Here are few sites that im workin on these days ....... cool eh???

http://tomyalisha.wordpress.com/ - Dedicated to my friend's daughter. Alisha.
http://shout4animals.wordpress.com/ - Dedicated to our Fury Friends.

One of my Episodes Promo:

Rest is all well .... starting up something new and hoping that it works out ... :)

WatEve!!

2011-02-01T22:27:00.000+05:00

Song of the day!!!

Black Eyed Peas - The Time (Dirty Bit)

2011-01-30T23:43:00.000+05:00

An unmeasurable amount of awesomenimity!!!!!!!!!!!!!

David Guetta - When Love Takes Over (FeatKelly Rowland)

2011-01-30T16:47:00.001+05:00

Oh Yea!!!!!

Sweet!! WordPress Blog is up and running!!

2011-01-26T22:00:00.002+05:00

Checkout:

http://shout4animals.wordpress.com/

LIFE!!!!!

2011-01-25T17:23:00.001+05:00

Scary???? I THINK NOT!!!!

2011-01-24T23:04:00.004+05:00

I don't know about you all but see the dog in the below pic .... well, i was shit scared of them and when i was told that i was suppose to shoot the annual Rottweiler Dog Show!!!! Hmmm ... you can only imagine how i reacted.

Just a day before the shoot, i started studying about them and they seemed pretty interesting and for some reason, i started feeling excited of seeing them the next day.

To my luck, i was right!!

I read: "Good-natured, placid in basic disposition and fond of children, very devoted, obedient, biddable and eager to work!!!"

I Saw: "Good-natured, placid in basic disposition and fond of children, very devoted, obedient, biddable and eager to work!!!"

So, here you go folks .... This scary lookin beast, that's usually known as a "Killer Dog" is posing pretty nicely with his young owners. :)

Note for whoever plng to get one of these loving and loyal dogs: Rottweiler is not for everyone and certainly not for first time or novice dog owners. Anyone considering owing one must have a strong hand and leadership abilities!!

My chromo shoot pics

2011-01-23T01:42:00.005+05:00

The Director of the Show:

Me .. with the director's cat .. Junior.

No-Kill Policy - Stray Animals

2011-01-22T16:41:00.002+05:00

So the Petition site is up and running: Have a look at it.

http://www.ipetitions.com/petition/no-kill-policy/

Ok ... so i was thinking of starting up this blog on only animals probably on WordPress. Will put daily updates on it from PAWS (Pakistan Animal Welfare Society) site and also all about our meetings on building up a shelter for these helpless animals.

I think that should do some good :) ...

Ok ... decided!! Yea!! Im soo excited!!

Luv this song!!

2011-01-19T15:39:00.002+05:00

SANDI THOM LYRICS

I Wish I Was A Punk Rocker (With Flowers In My Hair)

Oh I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair
In 77 and 69 revolution was in the air
I was born too late into a world that doesn't care
Oh I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair

When the head of state didn't play guitar,
Not everybody drove a car,
When music really mattered and when radio was king,
When accountants didn't have control
And the media couldn't buy your soul
And computers were still scary and we didn't know everything

[Chorus]

When pop-stars still remained a myth
And ignorance could still be bliss
And when God Saved the Queen she turned a whiter shade of pale
When my mom and dad were in their teens
And anarchy was still a dream
And the only way to stay in touch was a letter in the mail

[Chorus]

When record shops were still on top
And vinyl was all that they stocked
And the super info highway was still drifting out in space
Kids were wearing hand me downs,
And playing games meant kick around
And footballers still had long hair and dirt across their face

[Chorus]

I was born too late to a world that doesn't care
Oh I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair

1st Draft of the Petition Form

2011-01-19T01:03:00.003+05:00

So for the longest time i have been thinkin of forming this petition form to stop animal cruelty in Pakistan and i am starting with the area i live in.

This is the first draft, ones approved, it will be posted online for everyone to sign it and after that it will be presented to the management:

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To Whom It May Concern:

I am appalled over the treatment of animals in the Defence Area of Karachi. Horrifying stories of them being poisoned or Shot have spread over the Internet that reveals the illegal and inhumane treatment of stray animals in this particular area. The deplorable actions have been confirmed by individuals who reside in this area.

Please let me remind you that the activity at the DHA is in violation of the Pakistan Prevention of Cruelty to Animals Act, 1890: which aims to ensure that animals are provided a comfortable life and receive good and proper treatment, to protect them in the best manner possible from the infliction of pain, suffering and torture.

Also, know that your actions have not only cost lives of these stray animals but also of many beloved pets living in Defence area with their owners.

I request you to show some mercy to these homeless animals and instead of killing them, provide them the right to life, health and nutrition, to establish and maintain proper animal shelters and hospitals for the protection, and to provide care and treatment for them. We have many animal lovers living in this country and outside, who would both provide you with donations and physical help in running it too.

The suffering of animals in your area and in Pakistan must come to an end. I ask for an immediate intervention and a correct application of the Pakistan Prevention of Cruelty to Animals Act, 1890.

Sincerely,

Pics from my 1st shoot.

2011-01-15T01:02:00.005+05:00

Shakeel with his large and mini Macaws:

Currently the director is workin on getting the graphics and promo of the show ready. We are already done with 1st n 2nd episodes shoots. :)

Nida Butt with her German Shepherds:

i was shit scared at first, especially when the minute i walked inside the house, the German Shepherds ran towards me .... but lator they were calm and some what accepted me as a friend.

All in all .... this is fun and different :) ... n i like it!!! Yea!

So u use to like Dragons ....

2010-12-30T03:54:00.011+05:00

Hey Alisha,

Your mom is here, met her twice and mite meet her this Saturday too :) ...
She misses you alot ... all your khalas too and so does Abeeha. Your mom asked me to buy a book for Hoor (You know her ... rite?? Niamat's daughter) Well, your mom asked me to buy a book for Her and didn't tell me which one, so i ended up getting a book on animals. The minute your mom saw that she told me that u would have loved it. Coz just like ur rubbu khalla u too love animals. :) ...
God!! Do You know how many ppl love u???? I mean seriously!!! We live our entire life, trying to make ppl love us, accept us the way we are, work extremely hard to somehow touch their heart and you Missy ...... you ... in such a little time you had here .... touched them in your first meet. How did u manage to do that bacha??? I met you ... like probably three times?? And look at me ... i just can't stop writing u ... :) ...
So, back to u liking animals, the last time i met your mom, i was telling her abt this recent movie called "How to train your dragon" and your mom told me that you use to love movies and cartoons on dragons and dinosaurs. And that you would rather get a stuffed toy of them than any other toy. :) ... {Wish i knew this before}.
Your mom is working on tons of projects .... lets pray to God that everything works out in her favor.

Regards,
Rubbukhalla.

If tears could build a stairway,

And memories a lane,

I'd walk right up to Heaven

And bring you home again.

~ Author Unknown

New Plans .....

2010-12-15T12:21:00.003+05:00

So i have new plans for me self ....

Idea is that i seriously start working towards social media consultation. I already have two accounts in hand. And working towards getting more. Wish me luck!!

Plus, did i inform you all .... my audition got approved ... :D sweeeeeeeeeet!! ....

Will be updating u all abt my first show and how it goes.

Wat else ..... oh yea ... im back from the trip and had loads of fun. Met tons of ppl ... ate alot ... got sick ones .... :) ... Took pics .....

Baneen is here .. :) Haven't met her YET!! but will ... probably by next week .....

Two more things i need to tell u abt .... but ... probably by next week ..... coz im still workin on it :) ....

Found this for your mama.

2010-11-26T00:46:00.006+05:00

A Child Of Mine

by Edgar Albert Guest, 1930

I will lend you, for a little time,
A child of mine, He said.
For you to love the while she lives,
And mourn for when she's dead.
It may be six or seven years,
Or twenty-two or three.
But will you, till I call her back,
Take care of her for Me?
She'll bring her charms to gladden you,
And should her stay be brief.
You'll have her lovely memories,
As solace for your grief.
I cannot promise she will stay,
Since all from earth return.
But there are lessons taught down there,
I want this child to learn.
I've looked the wide world over,
In search for teachers true.
And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes,
I have selected you.
Now will you give her all your love,
Nor think the labour vain.
Nor hate me when I come
To take her home again?
I fancied that I heard them say,
'Dear Lord, Thy will be done!'
For all the joys Thy child shall bring,
The risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter her with tenderness,
We'll love her while we may,
And for the happiness we've known,
Forever grateful stay.
But should the angels call for her,
Much sooner than we've planned.
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes,
And try to understand.

To BG: As parents we sometimes forget just who's child we are loving and taking care of.

Love you and pray for your family everyday.

6 hrs on the road ... THANK YOU SIS FOR THE MP3 PLAYER!!

2010-11-24T00:17:00.002+05:00

So my top 5 picks:

Vertical Horizon: Save me from myself.
Disturbed: Down with the sickness
Lifehouse: hanging by a moment
Sevendust - Animosity (retail) - live again
Cranberries - Zombie

Oh Yea!!!!!!!!!!!! i just wanted to stay up for the whole journey .............

Was out for some REAL good reasons ... naaaaaaaaaaaat!!!

2010-11-19T22:30:00.006+05:00

So i do realize that it's been like forever since i last wrote my blog. Reason being ... well ... height of laziness ..... too much goin on in life ..... lost the meaning of continuing with my writing .... Yep, i can come up with dozens of reasons .. n i think i just did ... so lets just move on ..

Im taking a trip to the Punjab side of our Country ... Visiting 4 Metro Cities .... Multan, Faisalabad, Lahore and then Islamabad.

So, leaving this Sunday (21st November) and will be back on 5th of December. Best part about the whole trip is ..... COLD WEATHER!!!!!!!!!! Im trying to go to Muree as well, so that i can see some snow. :D ....

Ok .... that is half of what i wanted to talk about, the other half is all about me appearing on a TV show ..... yep ... you read it right ... i just auditioned for a TV show based on pets and their owners ... :) At first it was kinda scary ... especially with Rottweiler and Great Dane ... BUT .... after spending sometime with them ... it was arite.

One of my best shots were with a Shitzu and Labrador golden retriever ... they were extremely friendly :) and their owners were 12 and 9 year old girls. (Obviously under strict administration of their parents).

Next week i will find about the result on the audition but mean while.... Im happy that i added a new and exciting memory in my life. :)

..... signing out now ... but will try and keep you posted as often as possible.

Not Forgotten!!

2010-06-16T16:30:00.004+05:00

TO MY DEAREST ALISHA!!

The only reason i am not willing to say you Goodbye!!!

*Do not stand at my grave and weep*

Do not stand at my grave and weep..
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awake in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft star-shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry..
I am not there. I did not die.

by Mary Frye's

Had a talk with your mom yesterday, she is doing well, and so is your baby sister .. we were just discussing yesterday of how you loved tying up your hair in pony .... just because, this is how all the other princess do it too.

Love you!!

Broken Lyrics - Lifehouse

2010-01-11T14:36:00.000+05:00

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Few songs just speak your heart out!! Here is one of 'em!!

Artist: Lifehouse
Song: Broken

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home"

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Peek-a-boo …. I see u …

2010-01-06T15:24:00.003+05:00

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There are ppl in your life that u know will always have a PERFECT life!!!
They are PERFECT CHILD to their parents
They are Perfect sister, perfect student, perfect friend, perfect wife, and PERFECT MOTHER!!
You!! In your craziest mind can never think of them to FALL!!! You can NEVER imagine them being helpless and MOST of all …. You can never think of yourself not being able to help them in anyway!! For u are well aware that such ppl, One’s in a life time ask for anything …. N u always want to be ready!! U do want to be ready to give anything they ask for!!! ANYTHING!!!
BUT what if u can’t?
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What if that person sits infront of you n cries out, is confused and angry, is looking for answers ……. How do u live ur life like a normal person knowing that someone that u love soooo much is in constant pain!!! That someone is searching for that one face that she cannot see anymore, is searching for those arms that cannot hold her anymore …. Every morning she wakes up with a pray that she was having a bad dream ….
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Peek-a-boo …. I see u …
Peek-a-boo …. I search for u …..
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We do exists ........... really ...... WE DO!!!!!

2010-01-02T13:33:00.004+05:00

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US of A is looking after it self and its nations benefit.
Our Govt is looking after the reputation of their party.
Our opposition is looking after the ways to get approvals of some other Country.
Our other Political parties are looking after the present govt acts and ways to bring them down.
Our Army is fighting with our own people.
Our media is too busy in making every politician FAMOUS n making us look like idiots!!!
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So??????? this is when a question pops up in my head!!! "Who is looking after the nation of this Country???"

Am i complaining???? Do I feel neglected???? certainly no way ..... im just an ordinary person ... trying to know wats going on around me.

First there was wheat issue, then we have sugar issue, then we have terrorism issue (no!! that one comes in later .... or did it come first??? anyhooo, we have it somewhere in the list), then comes the NRO issue, now the politicians are complaining about the number of their GANG MEMBERS (oh sorry!! their well reputed employees) getting killed .... i think the number was somewhat 15 or 20. oh oh ....... here is something latest .... we cannot use CNG in our vehicles ....
Im sure im missing out on tons of other MAJOR issues our NATION is facing .... but these are the ones that i can currently recall .... Z

So the point of all this is to not to complain .... im not complaining cos there is no body for me to complain this to ...

The point is to get this out of my system!!! I am just trying to voice this up, that "We do exist!!!" .... INFACT .... I am trying to let our decision makers know that "We have the rights to Live!!!"

So!!! Dear decision makers ....we the citizens of this country are paying u to serve us!!!! It would be wonderful of you, if u could just give us that much ... JUST WAT WE ARE PAYING U FOR!!!!!!!! not asking u to go over board .... not asking u to serve us to ur BEST ..... just askin u to serve us!!!

????????? anyone listening???? can i get some serving on my table please????? i promise u a TIP!!!!! no???

WOW!!!!!!!!!

To my Alisha .........

2009-12-15T11:06:00.004+05:00

-I met your mom last week and she really misses u alot bacha. She is scared to go back home and put your toys away. Tell me Alisha, how can i help?
Your mom has done alot for me, has taken care of me and now that it's my turn, i am unable to do or say anything to her.
She was telling us that you wanted to keep the halloween decoration on the day of your accident and your mom didn't let you. She was angry at herself for making you upset, im sure bacha you understand why she removed them .... rite??? She also kept a toy bag for you, she told me you were in love with it, she made alot of plans of giving it to you on the following weekend.
There is sooo much she wanted to say and sooo much plans she had for you .... oh!! Btw your baba misses u too .... alot!! He doesn't talk alot but he is tryng to be strong for your mama.
Abheeha even misses u ... she miss playing with you.
All your Aunts, your grand parents and everyone who even met you for few seconds, can't stop saying that you were an angel .......
We all are trying real hard in taking care of your mama .... she still has the plaster from the accident, but she is getting better.
Alisha beta .... you are closer to Allah, can you please ask Him to give strength to your parents to survive your loss? They need all the prayers they can get ...

Lastly, i took some pani puri for your mom last week and she loved it .... i will be visiting her again today. I will say Hi from your end.
Love u beta!!

We are NOT invincible!!! n That's OK!!!!

2009-12-08T10:53:00.006+05:00

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Ever wondered, why we have sooo many people around us all the bloody time?? Y they constantly want to know of how u are doing in life? Y they care?
I think i know!!
Two weeks back, i had a different theory .... i always use to think that because everyone is soooo bored in their own little world, they find other ppl's life interesting. Its like watching a soap opera!!
Then, life took a turn, my thoughts took a U turn and made me realize that everything doesn't have to be all negative!!
We have ppl in our life all the bloody time, coz we need them to be there ..... we need them to constantly remind us with their every fall n success that we are NOT invincible!!! We need them to remind us that even if we are not .... there is always room to get up, brush it off and be back in the game!!!
Them asking us, about our life is an assurance to themselves that "Life's not that bad!!" (Depending on wat side of life we are in).
Its all a vicious circle!!
Every wondered, how most of our questions get answered by somebody's mistakes? or their success? I really think that God exists in all of us, trying to communicate. Trying to guide us!!
All we have to do is just listen and be there for eachother!!
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Moments in life!!

2009-09-11T22:27:00.001+06:00

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The moment of silence,
The moment of knowing, who you really are.

The moment of acceptance,
The single moment of realization.

The moment of loneliness,
The moment of knowing somebody’s importance.

The moment of success,
The moment of feeling invincible.

The moment of failure,
The moment of believing in His existence.

Khumar

Message of PEACE from an 11yr old!!

2009-09-07T21:11:00.007+06:00

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This Poem was written by a boy who was just 11 yrs old at that time, Mattie passed away at an age of 13, just three weeks before his 14th b'day. He was an inspirational, and even though he is not around anymore, he left us the gift of his poems. And i recommend everyone to have a look at his website. http://www.mattieonline.com/index.htm

Mattie Stepanek's Heartsongs

For Our World

By Mattie J.T. Stepanek

We need to stop.

Just stop.

Stop for a moment…

Before anybody

Says or does anything

That may hurt anyone else.

We need to be silent.

Just silent.

Silent for a moment…

Before we forever lose

The blessing of songs

That grow in our hearts.

We need to notice.

Just notice.

Notice for a moment…

Before the future slips away

Into ashes and dust of humility.

Stop, be silent, and notice…

In so many ways, we are the same.

Our differences are unique treasures.

We have, we are, a mosaic of gifts

To nurture, to offer, to accept.

We need to be.

Just be.

Be for a moment… Kind and gentle, innocent and trusting,

Like children and lambs,

Never judging or vengeful

Like the judging and vengeful.

And now, let us pray,

Differently, yet together,

Before there is no earth, no life,

No chance for peace.

September 12, 2001©

Matthew Joseph Thaddeus Stepanek

MUSIC!!

2009-08-26T11:15:00.002+06:00

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How strange that just a piece of music can take you back to a part of your memory that you now barely think of anymore.

It brings back every single detail, and feelings that u had at that very moment.

I think, no matter where i am, no matter what i am doing, no matter how tough my life is, music is the only thing that can take me anywhere i want to go!!

It connects me back to those ppl who are no longer around me, it takes me back to that very living room where i was introduced to some really good music, to my that security dispatch room, where i use to spend straight 12 hours and the only thing that use to keep me up was the radio and takes me back to those walks from home to uni n to work at some -ve degree Fahrenheit.

Takes me to those endless drives on HWY 169 and HWY 118 ..... :S

I still remember how scared I was when I took my first flight to states. How excited I was when I met my sister and my niece. How I didn’t like taco bell ….. and how everything tasted funny. The only thing I liked for few weeks was Long John Silver … and I believe that was one of those very last restaurants I visited b4 leaving.

I was shit scared on my first night at dorms …. I felt that somebody would definitely kick my ass at our floor common loo. How lucky I was to have amazing roommates throughout my life in states. How I had almost 10 ppl helping me in my orientation at school. My first job, my first snow fall, my first tornado, my first crush and my first heart break …….

Wonderful memories and I’m blessed to have them!!! :)
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MUST ....... HAVE........ SNYDERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-20T18:22:00.006+06:00

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On one fine Monday afternoon, say around 2:14 P.M my dearest friend/xRoommate came online... and below is what she had to share:

2:14 PM
Roomie: RUBBBBBU!!!
2:15 PM
Roomie: guess what im EATING!!!
me: yes???????????? actually, noooooooooooooo
Roomie: SNYDERS!!!
me: :S
Roomie: i found it in a grocery store here!!!
me: I KNEW IT ....
Roomie: CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!!
me: this will not make me happy :S NOW i want some tooo :S
2:16 PM
me: which flavor?
Roomie: jalapeno

n that is all i needed to know .................... =(

I MISS YOU BUFFALO WING SNYDERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mirror Mirror

2009-08-17T22:33:00.003+06:00

Mirror Mirror

by Leslie:

"Mirror-mirror on the wall
show me what you see
if you really reflect it all
show every piece of me

behind my eyes, behind my smile
deep into my soul
linger for a little while
show me all you know

not just a figure standing here
reveal all that's inside
show me, even though I fear
here and now, it's time

show
the bruised and battered place in me
the piece that just can't cope
the part that longs to be set free
the side where life's a joke

the innocence hiding behind the sin
the adult inside the child
the heart that won't let anyone in
the piece of me that's mild

the place in me that's always red
the part that's forever blue
the side that follows what is said
the piece that's always confused

the place in me that thinks I’m right
the part that knows I’m wrong
the side that's bloated up with pride
the piece that can't go on

the coward inside the fighter
the genius next to the dumb
the part that's drunk with laughter
the side that shies from fun

so, mirror-mirror on the wall
I’ll step back so I can see
if you really reflect it all
and show every piece of me"

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Clueless .... AGAIN!!!!

2009-08-16T15:39:00.004+06:00

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I hate those few moments in life when your past crawls back inside your mind and every single detail runs like a movie.

I hate those moments when every fukin thing reminds you of those handful number of ppl that u REALLY want to forget.

I hate when a complete stranger say something soooo stupid and meaningless and THAT meaningless thing fuks up ur brains.....

I mean what is wrong with me????? y can't i just let it go and be at peace????? y can't i ignore and not let ppl get to me .....

Wat am i doing wrong???? THIS very question has been around me for quite sometime. Do i try too hard?? Or am I too stubborn to not to dance on their every beat?? N y should I??

I’m at a phase in life where everything seems temporary.... Terms like "FOREVER" sounds BS.... Romantic movies piss me off ....... and meeting new ppl just tires me out.

Rain makes me cry and beach drains out my energy!!! Two single sight of the nature that use to bring back life in me..... Now takes away every little smile that i tried collecting over a period of time.

I need a makeover….. a makeover of my soul…… BUT HOW???? God I’m so clueless….. wat do I want????

Am I being ungrateful?? Really? Is that it??? No can’t be…… I always feel contented for having such loving and caring family, and friends. How can I be ungrateful??

We all make mistakes…. I do get that part…. And I keep telling myself that “forgive and forget” works like a miracle, and I have practiced all that but……. How can I not get that to work this time??? I feel broken …. I feel my weak knees on the ground and I don’t find the need to bring myself back up again.

I was an eagle and now I’m chained to the memories of my past … I need to break free … I need to fly again …. I need to get my “ready to fight” passion back!!!

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Yatta!

2009-08-14T18:29:00.003+06:00

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It toooooooooook forever to understand how to change my blogspot template and keep all my widgets .... :))

YEA!!!!!!!!!! LOOKS Great .... doesn't it?????

I WENT OUT FOR SHOPPING!!! YEA

2009-07-31T14:29:00.002+06:00

9:30 - 6:30: WORK

6:30 - 11:00: Shopping!!! :D

Life just keeps getting better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Amazing Live Performance!!

2009-07-30T00:28:00.004+06:00

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My Immortal;

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

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How to face your issues in life .....

2009-07-10T13:31:00.004+06:00

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Do You see that BIG dog??? thats the size of my issues ..... now see the small, cute .... tineee tiny dog .... saying "FU" ..... well that's me ..... FACING MY ISSUES!!!!!

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2009-07-04T11:19:00.002+06:00

"Man In The Mirror"

I'm Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It's Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .

As I, Turn Up The Collar On My
Favourite Winter Coat
This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street,
With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind?
Pretending Not To See
Their Needs
A Summer's Disregard,
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man's Soul
They Follow Each Other On
The Wind Ya' Know
'Cause They Got Nowhere
To Go
That's Why I Want You To
Know

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change)
(Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah)

I've Been A Victim Of A Selfish
Kind Of Love
It's Time That I Realize
That There Are Some With No
Home, Not A Nickel To Loan
Could It Be Really Me,
Pretending That They're Not
Alone?

A Willow Deeply Scarred,
Somebody's Broken Heart
And A Washed-Out Dream
(Washed-Out Dream)
They Follow The Pattern Of
The Wind, Ya' See
Cause They Got No Place
To Be
That's Why I'm Starting With
Me
(Starting With Me!)

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Ooh!)
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change

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IM MELTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-02T22:30:00.003+06:00

Fukin HOTT Weather!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Saw this on a website n it truely speaks my mind)!

There is a GOD!!!

2009-06-23T11:03:00.002+06:00

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So ive been searching forever the method to show my current music track as a status on my google talk ....

no no!! don't roll ur eyes ..... i recently changed my os to vista and its freakin annoying to go through a process in order to see ur music track on google talk.

ANyhoooooooooooooooo..... so i thought of sharing this info wid u all .... im sure u all know this already but ... just incase if some one is still searching:

1. If you have Google talk already installed, un-install it from Add/remove programs.
2. Right click on the Google Talk installation file and select Run as Administrator. This will give you higher power (called elevation) to install Google Talk so that you will see all functionality.
3. Proceed with the installation.
4. Log-in to Google Talk and keep it running.
5. Now open Media Player 11, (Please do not open Media Player 11 before logging in to Google Talk) Right click near Now Playing tab on the menu bar and seelct View.
6. Click on Plug-ins and then Options. Click on backgrounds and if the Google Talk music plug-in is not checked please check it. If it is checked you need not worry. All is set up as expected.
7. Click on Apply and Ok.
8. Go to Google talk and set status message as Show current music track. Yup you are done. It is so simple.

voila!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life is great again!!!!

Wat HaVe I BEen UPtO??? :)

2009-06-10T23:21:00.007+06:00

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I was on FM100 :) ... a Live show ... !!!

I was asked to talk about Events Mgmt and how exactly can one get into it? I prepared 10 questions for my RJ and out of which only 3 were asked.

It was a complete two hr show and went by pretty fast. Apart from my work, loads of other things were also discussed. Current job market, interview process in Karachi and rights of an employee.

Life check list:

Radio: Check
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One Wish!

2009-05-15T13:48:00.003+06:00

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I sang while they died.
I sang while the world cried.

Thou scream I didn’t hear,
N passed a decade with no fear.

No bullets no guns I ever saw,
Neve’ felt a Nation disappear.

I filled my hunger,
While the humanity suffered starvation.

Millions departed.
Millions saw genocide,
Millions begged for a better death,

Their cries, their fears, their sorrows
Their loss, their fate, their gone tomorrows!!

I shall not be blamed for anyone’s misery,
N That! I believe in,
They get what they deserve,
N That! I believe in,
My life is better because of me,
N That! I believe in,

I have everything and everything I ever dreamt of,
Only have one wish, and only that one wish would do,
If there is a God and if that God can listen,
How about granting me with a conscience SOUL?

By Khumar

My Precious

2009-04-21T15:59:00.004+06:00

~ The feeling of sleepiness when you are not in bed, and can't get there, is the meanest feeling in the world. ~

Edgar Watson Howe

So my sleep is very important to me!!!! why is that a bad thing?? i mean ... y do ppl have to call me in the middle of the night!

I am up all day and nobody calls ..... as soon as i hit my sack ... that's when all the spiel about "Staying in-touch" comes into existence!!

Hey! u know wat .... i can use this blog for "You know wat REALLY grinds my gears?? "

You know wat really grinds my gears?? Ppl calling me in the middle of the night!! I mean, first u call me at such a bizarre time and then have enuf nerves to ask me, "did i wake u up?".... Like OMG!!! Of course u didn't!!! infact ... i was actually waiting for your call!! Now i can sleep peacefully!!!

SO, Ppl calling me in the middle of the night grinds my gears!!!!

You know wat REALLY grinds my gears??

2009-04-14T17:18:00.002+05:00

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You know wat really grinds my gears?? Himesh Reshammiya!! I mean, how can a voice like his be used in Bollywood movies and on top of that .. they actually decided of casting him in movies!! now we have to see AND listen to him both at the sametime??

So Himesh Reshammiya grinds my gears!!!!

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Long Tyme no C ... !

2009-04-01T13:55:00.015+05:00

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Sorry for being away for soooo long!! Nothing too serious ... just that my Internet at home was not working and i was crazy busy at work n never found the rite time to update my blog...

Anyways, so what is one of the most popular flavors in the world?

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CHOCOLATE!!! (Doesn’t that just bring a smile on ur face?)

U know, People say chocolate makes u happy!!! ...... i say that's an understated comment... coz i think chocolate makes u EXTREMELY happy!!!!!!! Especially when it is designed by HP...

Ladies n gentlemen!!! Meet my new laptop! HP Pavilion Entertainment PC - DV 2700 a.k.a HP Chocolate.... n i take a pride in assuring u that it’s Yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuumy!!!!

i will act like a child here and will tell u wat's soo exciting abt it ... it has:

Touch sensitive buttons that allows controlling your media files when viewing or listening and a shortcut as well to Quickplay and DVD. (Not to forget, a remote control with it)
Lightscribe Super Multi DVD Writer. (which means, I can burn n label my CD’s)
Intel Core 2 Duo Processor.
Built-in web camera
14.1-inch WXGA High Definition BrightView Widescreen Display

My HP project went really well ... met more than 3000 students from all around the city.

Life in khi (Karachi) is great, every now and then we hear about bomb threats in malls n restaurants and yet every time u go there u will find the same amount of crowd. :) .....

We don't really have alot of fun city type of place, or sight seeing ... so the only way we can kill time and enjoy our evenings are by going out to eat!! or we just shop! even if it means to buy a can of coke!

I have finally managed to make friends with two amazing people ... they are JUST FULL OF LIFE!! they find humor in any given scenario ... they love chatting and gossiping :) ....

One of them (I call her Xo) is bloody straight fwd in everything ..... she takes least interest in pleasing anyone (one of Her best qualities) .. other fun quality in her is to ask TOO MANY QUESTIONS ... for her there is no such thing as PRIVACY ... n i think im getting use to that and some times get entertained by the level of her curiosity. She is one of the best things that can ever happen to a person. She keeps handful number of friends (in that case just 2 .... rite xo?) and takes care of them ... Her quote of life is ... "FRIENDS SHARE" worries, happiness, clothes, food etc etc etc ...

The other one (My sun-Shine) is someone that brings warmth and comfort where ever she goes. She is just as curious as the first one but not soo CRAZY (Luv u Xo). She is usually the quite one in our grp, but that means she is observing u and tryn to figure out of what u are thinking. Coz God knows, if u look distress, than she will be on ur nerves to make sure u either share ur worries or she will just sit with u until u are ready to share. (which we usually end up doing) mite sound crazy ... but believe me .... u feel great to know that someone TRUELY CARES and wont relax until u do.

Im kinda falling out of the whole American "I need space" life!! coz in this part of the world ... u share ur space with ur family n friends ... n u know that u are not alone .... EVEN IF U R CRAVING FOR IT!

I think i like it here ..... infact ... i love it here!! the food still makes me sick, too many people with too many questions still drive me insane, dinner plans with relatives does the same .... but u have to pay some price for happiness and i think mine is not that costly!

Cheers to new life!

Current Playlist

2009-02-16T00:52:00.003+05:00

For the love of god by Steve Vai
Far Away by Tin star
Bother by Stone Sour
Runaway Train by Soul Assylum
Hands by Jewel
Sorry by Buckcherry
Teardrops on my guitar by Taylor Swift
I'm with you by Avril
If you're not the one by Daniel Bedingfield
MTV Unplugged Album (1999) by Alanis Morissette
The crush of love by Joe Satriani
Live again by Sevendust
Weight Of The World by Evanescence
Letter to you(Acoustic) by Finch
The first of me by Hoobastank
Better than me by Hinder
A night to remember by Andy Timmons
Cry for you (live) by Andy Timmons

You know wat REALLY grinds my gears??

2009-02-09T22:23:00.002+05:00

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You know wat really grinds my gears?? Horror Movies!! I mean, What is the whole point in watching something that would scare you for the rest of your life?? Isn't movies all about entertainment and not about scaring the shit out of u??

So Scary Movies grinds my gears!!!!

On my "Flends" request!!!

2009-02-09T17:19:00.002+05:00

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The second poem read in the movie "in her Shoes" was about love by e.e. cummings…

i carry your heart with me
i carry your heart with me
(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it

(anywhere i go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear no fate

(for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world
(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart
(i carry it in my heart)

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Old notes make sense today!!

2009-02-08T19:56:00.010+05:00

Sunday is usually a day when u cleanup ur closets, do laundry and go through your old stuff and discard those items that are not in ur use!!

While i was going through my old school bag, i found few notes and would love to share them with you and explain how they make sense today!

First note i found, im sure most of u all know that we find these messages in Dove chocolate wrappers.

Today this made ALOT of sense!! As today i took my FIRST lesson in driving a Stick Shift!! 30 mins of driving was a Bitch!! Clutch, no breaks ... no no ... keep on driving!! Its a new car and hence just a slight weight on an accelerator makes our car jump!! Luckily my teacher has hell lot of PATIENCE!! ...... and even if he didn't ... did not matter somehow .. as he is my younger brother's best friend!!

OKAY!! my second note was from an old friend!! call it my bad memory but i don't remember why she wrote this to me;

Today i am so grateful to her for writing this to me. Two days back i had a constant question in my mind, that y we meet ppl and why they walk away! I was angry and confused ... but after finding this note .. i know onething for sure ... i met many Angeles in every walk of my life .. and looking forward of meeting some more :)

My third and last note, not exactly a note .... but a fortune cookie! :)

Before leaving Cali .. i went to Panda Express .. and got hold of a fortune Cookie and guess what it said;

:) How Cool is that?? now im thinking whether its the coming summer or the summer that just passed. :S

Anyhoo ..... i need to come up with a new "What really Grinds My Gears" .. lets see :)

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Life lesson from a 45 mins Rope Course !!!!

2009-02-01T18:07:00.005+05:00

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Last weekend was brilliant ... i learned so much, lets start from the High Rope Course, my initial plan was not to go on one coz im shit scared of heights, but due to alot of peer pressure i took the courage to pay Rs. 200 ($ 3.00) and remember it for the rest of my life. (yea that's how scared I was).

The course started up with a short training, on a height of 2 inches above the ground. (n THAT made my head spin). Lator we were taken to a higher level and that's when it all started ... "life lessons". Every task that i completed made me realize that that's how life is, just like life, you cannot go back in time and cannot quit, like you have to keep on moving in order to finish what you started. There were few times where i just wanted to close my eyes and not see where i was going (for eg swinging from one end to another, at 60 ft above the ground), but just couldn't do it. I had to see everything, as we cannot face our fears with closed eyes.

Anyhow, God was great and so were all my friends who kept on cheering for me, i could hear them from a distance screaming "yes Khumar, u are almost done!!!" i guess ..... no matter what phase in life u are ... u always need someone to cheer for u... to let u know that they are waiting on the other end to celebrate your success, but at the sametime, it also reminds u .. that no matter how much one cheers for u ... it is u ... all alone to fight and face your own battles in life.

Will i do it AGAIN!! Hell no!!!

About other incidents where i learned alot ... well i learned a really good way to make sheesha ... i think im getting somewhat better in charades.. and .. above all .. i think im getting better at giving Presentations.

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Charades

2009-01-28T12:13:00.008+05:00

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After our successful event yesterday, my TeamMates and I went out for bowling, (and this is after having a very long and tiring day).

Anyways ... we went for bowling and i scored the lowest!! 38!! :D .... after that we all decided to go out for sheesha and coffee. (Basically its a coffee house that provides sheesha). My fav. part about that place was the ambience, sheesha n coffee was just arite.

So ... coming back to the subject; while waiting for our orders, we all thought of playing charades .... 90% of the time i suck at this game .... its not the guessing that im bad at ... its the acting part.

List of movies we used yesterday:

Asambhav (Know that non of us knew the meaning of this word, so we had to break it into three Syllables ... Ass + SUM and then luckily we fig. out the name).
Andaz Apna Apna
Aflatoon (for some reason ... this took a lot of time)
The unborn (i acted on this)
Kamasutra (one of the guys acted on it)

Overall, life is great (knock on wood), i miss my old friends and especially my sis and my three nieces *TEARS* but im really glad to be back in my Country, Just like they say it ... "There is no place like HOME!!!"

You know wat REALLY grinds my gears??

2009-01-26T20:24:00.003+05:00

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You know wat really grinds my gears?? Aptitude Exams!! I mean, how come a President of a Country doesn't have to appear for one before giving his names out for the elections? knowing it is one the MOST important job!! AND How come i have to sit for hours and hours in one of these crazy exams for a decent work to earn $50,000/yr salary?

So Aptitude Exams grinds my gears!!!!

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You know wat REALLY grinds my gears??

2009-01-19T00:06:00.005+05:00

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You know wat really grinds my gears?? Couples having babies!! I mean look around you, there are already tons of orphan children in this world; kids who are victims of natural disasters and victims of wars and you are busy bringing in more.

So Couples having babies grinds my gears!!!!

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ah!!! Those good Old Dayz!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-16T21:36:00.002+05:00

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I just turned Eight!!!

2009-01-12T20:32:00.008+05:00

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To those mornings and to those nights when everything felt alrite,

To those memories, where hide n seek was just a game,
To those open wounds when we fell while playing,
To those fights where adults were never part of,
And to those full dinner tables where i never wanted to be a part of.

As now,
My morning and my nights are no more safe,
My family is playing hide and seek to live for few more days,
My wounds are open and mama doesn't know how to fix them,
Oh God!! that was my play ground that just blew up in the air,
I don't like when adults fight, the screams are making my sister scare.

My dada asked me to be brave,
To protect my family,
You see, he is gone now and i am the only MAN in my family.
But how can i? how can i not be scared?
As today, I just turned eight!!!

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To the children of war!!!!

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By Khumar

You know wat REALLY grinds my gears??

2009-01-12T16:45:00.006+05:00

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Continuing to wat Peter Griffin started on Family Guy, ill try and post every week of wat really grinds my gears!!!!

For today, you know wat really grinds my gears?? Relatives!! I mean you don't see them at all and when you do, they act as if they know u inside n out!!!

So relatives grinds my gears!!!!
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Did I Say I Am Not An IT Person??????????????????

2009-01-02T22:11:00.007+05:00

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I have always thought that God has a great sense of humor!! He just sits up there and waits for someone to say something and then ..... and then my friends .... he does the opposite of it!! ....

In my last blog i said, i am not an IT person and hence cannot go into the details of my new laptop ...

TODAY!! my boss made few changes in the project i was working on ... NOW this project will require me to learn the hardware of HP computers (IN DETAIL). I have less than 10 days to learn as much as i can, and then represent HP infront of 40 schools in Karachi and 40 schools in Lahore (cities in Pakistan). This is going to be 2 mths project. (So Basically Dealing with 1 or 2 schools everyday for TWO MONTHS)

What are my issues here?? well ... firstly, i hate doing presentations ... i always found out ways to skip them throughout my school career. (its not the presentation that bothers me, its the Q & A session that freaks me out!!) ... and here ... everyday i have to face my fear! Secondly, i did my 11th n 12th grade in Pre Engg and then 4 yrs of college in Finance (1st semester was MIS and then i switched, just so that i don't have to go through the IT part). I mean the list can go on n on n on!!

Here are few things that i learned today: (As i had 2 hrs to make a presentation for our HP clients)

I learned abt Intel Processors: Starting from Intel® Celeron® processor to Intel® Core™ i7 processor Extreme Edition.

A little about HP LightScribe (Pretty cool stuff).

Anyways .... enuf about my work!!

here are few list of restaurants i really want to visit:

Aqua Lounge: Serve Seafood, Steaks and Chicken!!

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Beirut: Serve Authentic Lebanese Specialties

Special Beirut-platter-

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Fuchsia: Serve Modern Thai Cuisine

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OH!! the reason im not saying anything abt how i spent my new yr eve is because our religious month started 2 days before 31st. n basically we are not suppose to be celebrating anything for almost 2 mths.

My New year resolution is to become a vegetarian before 2010 starts :) .... Good One eh??

Guess wat Santa Got me For this Christmas??

2008-12-27T20:52:00.011+05:00

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no no .. not the Cappuccino :) ..... but Compaq Notebook!!!!!! YEA!! .... I'm def. not an IT person, hence cannot go into the technicalities ... however i would love to share one great thing abt it ..... it has a 15.4" LCD screen!! :) Plus free installation of Internet connection worth $100 at my place. Guess whose my Santa?? my work place :) ...

My current wallpaper:

fun stuff eh??

For some reason i am not very interested in watching Ghajini (the new Aamir Khan movie) as its inspired from one of my favourite movie Memento, just don't want to see the Bollywood version of it. I love Bollywood movies ... but just don't like the ones "inspired" from Hollywood movies.

hate to whine here, but this Sunday i will complete two whole weeks of coughing!!!! Can u believe that??

arite tyme for bed!!

Happy Holidays Everyone!!!!!

2008-12-22T21:37:00.001+05:00

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Pursuit of happiness:

2008-12-18T10:33:00.014+05:00

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Alter Bridge - One By One

2008-12-14T12:55:00.005+05:00

Alter Bridge One By One

Underneath the desert sun

They bid my brother's blood to run

Many miles away

Hell has come today

Fire raining from the sky

See the face of fear asking one last time

Let me get home safe

Before it's too late

One by one

The brave will fall

Life is lost again

They gave it all

Deep within the castle walls

So many grieve as funeral songs

Echo endlessly

Ode to memories

This sacrifice of flesh and blood

For a promised land that may not be won

Let us not forget the hero laid to rest

One by one

The brave will fall

Life is lost again

They gave it all

And they have it all

A price we can't ignore

Is there hope in what they're dying for?

For every hero born

For every family torn

We will honour you forever more

One by one

The brave will fall

Life is lost again

They gave it all

One by one

The brave will fall

Life is lost again

They gave it all

"The First Of Me"

2008-12-13T13:29:00.004+05:00

Just came across few inspirational songs .... below is one of 'em:

HOOBASTANK

"The First Of Me"

I must make a choice
A tough decision
Listen to my voice
Should I give in
To temptation, admiration
One leads to myself
The other some one else
Just an empty shell
Just an empty shell

It's harder than it seems
When you're told that
All your hopes and dreams
Are yours to hold if
You just give them
What's expected
Something they can sell
Put upon a shelf
That I am not for sale
I am not for sale

[Chorus:]
I here a voice inside
It's crowning to a scream
I'm not the next of them
I am the first of me
'cause I can live the lie
I am just what you see
I'm not the next of them
I am the first of me

If I can't refuse
The price they offer
I am sure to lose
And I will suffer
Sell my soul to make a profit
All I have to do
Is make believe it's true
That something I can't do
That something I can't do

[Chorus]

So when the waiting's gone
This time to face the truth
You know your good enough
Deep down inside of you

You're finally woken up
If only just to prove
You are born to lead the way
Then be the first of you

More to come ..

Building a website ..

2008-12-06T12:39:00.003+05:00

Things i need: (checklist)

Meeting with the developers - Done

Prepare a Business Requirement Document - Emailed my mentor to help me out with it.

Create Prototypes for a better understanding.

So far this is what i have in my list, i will need couple of other things to evaluate; for e.g.

My budget against the cost of building a website.

Need to figure out how i will deal with shipping?? Should i use Paypal? but is that used in all the countries??? if not then??

For the clothing size?? should i use clothing size chart?? or ask my customers to send me their exact size?? hmmmmm ....

Totally Random .. but worth watching.

2008-12-04T22:39:00.005+05:00

Torn

Whatever.. Cute kid.

Dane Cook - Brain Ninjas (Fights in a relationship)

Punjabi Blood - Pinky

ENJOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pics Time.

2008-11-28T14:09:00.013+05:00

Some Pics from our Rescue Mission:

On our way to Sunday Market:

Sunday Market:

Momo:

Omashu:

Momo at the back and Omashu.

To Momo n Omashu. Our first Rescue mission.

2008-11-26T11:23:00.006+05:00

This last Sunday my sister called me up and asked me if i was interested in rescuing a kitten. Out of all the places, that kitten was kept in a cage at an open market sort of a place (Something like farmers market).

Worse thing about this situation is that that kitten was not alone there, that cage contained a two yr old cat, a baby rabbit and a 5 week old kitten (just the same age as in this one). That cage was rusted, had water spilled over ..... there were two more cages there, and each contained 2 - 3 yr old Persian cats.

Now, when my sister picked Momo (that's wat we are calling him) the other kitten was shivering and looking at me .... for a whole day all i had in my mind was her starry eyes. Reason i didn't pick her up at that time was because the owner of the kittens was selling them at a very expensive price, all we could afford at that time was just one.

By the grace of God very next day i got my first pay check (A week before it is suppose to be given), so i asked my sister to call up that lady and let her know that we are coming over to get Omashu (Omo in short).

Omo was not in a very good condition, just like Momo she was also very weak and had ticks all over her body. Omo was also running fever and was not walking properly, she was still shivering. So, we took her to the vet, got her cleaned up n got antibiotic injection for her fever.

Now, remember that Omo and Momo are brother n sister, so as soon as Momo saw Omo ... he started jumping on her and licking her and started playing hide and seek and in just few minutes, Omo was very comfortable being around Momo.

Mr brother in law, my sis and i gave them a warm bath, combed them and applied baby powder.

Omo still gets scared everytime we are anywhere near her. But im hoping that in a day or two we will be able to win her trust.

By midnite, all three of us decided that we should start up a non-profit organization to rescue cats from such places and bring them home, keep them for a week, make them strong and then pass them on to someone who can take care of them, just the way we do.

Pakistan is one of those Countries that don't have any laws or rights for the animals. We don't even have any proper stores here for them. So!! this move might just become a platform for those who love animals.

Wish us luck friends. And ya!! i will soon upload the pics of our Momo and Omashu!!

Yes Yes!! They just don't belong to me but to all my animal lovers.

My Last Week :)

2008-11-11T19:11:00.006+05:00

Arite .... so my last blog was depressing, but onwards (inshallah) will not be ...

My whole last week was awesome .... I started up my new job, did an event and met a school friend at my brother's concert.

Oh yea, i also got an opportunity to yell at someone at a government office!!!!! To all those people out there from Pakistan, im talking about KESC.

Anywho! :) lets hope u all enjoy visual effects of my last week .... (no no!! i don't have a pic of me yelling at someone) ...

Concert at The Lounge:

The Elbow Room:

My Work Place: (Yea ... we are pretty chilled out ppl) :

That's all i have for now ....

Door of my soul

2008-11-10T18:41:00.005+05:00

There is a knock at the door of my soul,
I create noises around me to let it die,
But nothing helps,

No! I will not answer you,
Please go away,
I know I know its you conscience,
I know why you are here.

I have always been good,
I have always tried to do things the right way,
But what happened?
I was left alone, I was kicked and pushed.

No! Stop it! Not this time,
I won’t let you take me on a guilt ride,
What I did was out of good will,
I meant no harm,

You were there, weren’t you?
YES! I know, I could have stopped there and then,
YES! I know I had the control ….

Why are you only accusing me??
What about others? When they did things wrong?
Ah!! What am I saying?
What can you do about them?

So I bow my head and unlock the door,
And let my conscience enter my soul,
Hence this poem is a form of an apology,
For not being honest and for hurting you.

I hope … no!! I pray that life gives me another chance to prove you,
To prove you how much I care,
To prove you that I can be much more than what I have become,

I pray that I can live a day in life,
Where I don’t feel guilty,
Where everyday is beautiful and pure,
Where life tells me, ITS OVER, you have been forgiven.

By Khumar

What Do I do for Living??

2008-11-07T12:16:00.006+05:00

Imagine it’s your first day at work; your big B calls u in in his office and asks u to assist him to an upscale restaurant.

Now, what’s your first reaction??? Its only 11 in the morning … so are we going there for breakfast? Or for an early lunch? (Yes!! Ur mind is only thinking about what u will get to eat).

So!! You go there, the place is empty, and the ambience is pretty good. And right when u are thinking of asking for menu ….. Your boss looks at u and asks u “what do you think about this place?? Do you think you can some how manage to accommodate 125 people in it?? And if yes, then how??” Then he asks the restaurant manager to bring in his top 5 drinks, and you get to taste all of them. You get to decide which ones you liked the most and that drink is used for the event. (BTW, I picked; Cherry Sky, Mint Lemonade and Mango Smoothie)

Basically, this is what I do!! I’m placed at an event management company as a trainee manager for 3 mths. Our company organizes events such as, conferences, concerts, fashion shows, corporate dinners etc … My job is to come up with creative ideas with low costs and find the best possible way to build the brand.

I will have many days with absolute nothing to do and few days will just drive me crazy. Hmmmm …. This reminds me of a quotation we had at campus security:

“Hours and hours of boredom, punctuated with few moments of stark terror”

Today I’m attending my first event; at The Elbow Room (yea, where I decided the drinks) we will have dinner, and after that a game of tambola.

Wish me luck ..

Report on my TDL.

2008-11-05T15:32:00.004+05:00

Prev. Blog: My To Do List for tom.!!

1) Update my blog!
Doing it now :)

2) update my MP3 player.
DONE!
Asked one of my co-workers to do that for me :)

3) Get an appointment with my Optometrist
DONE!!
Visited him and he asked me to not to wear lenses again (yaaaa right).

4) have fun at work!!! (yup!! i got a job)
WoooHOOO ..... Yes i did!

** Upcoming Blog: More updates about where i am working and why am i soo happy with my work!

My To Do List for tom.!!

2008-11-03T00:36:00.003+05:00

1) Update my blog!
2) update my MP3 player.
3) Get an appointment with my Optometrist
4) have fun at work!!! (yup!! i got a job)

Watch: The RNC in a Minute

2008-10-24T16:18:00.004+06:00

Picked it up from: Urdhvadhanurasana’s Weblog.

Brilliant!!!

Get the latest news satire and funny videos at 236.com.

Cut the Rope

2008-10-24T15:30:00.003+06:00

The story tells about a mountain climber, who wanted to climb the highest mountain. He begun his adventure after many years of preparation, but since he wanted the glory just for himself, he decided to climb the mountain alone.

The night felt heavy in the heights of the mountain, and the man could not see anything. All was black. Zero visibility, and the moon and the stars were covered by the clouds.

As he was climbing, only a few feet away from the top of the mountain, he slipped and fell into the air, falling at a great speed. The climber could only see black spots as he went down, and the terrible sensation of being sucked by gravity. He kept falling… and in those moments of great fear, it came to his mind all the good and bad episodes of his life.

He was thinking now about how close death was getting, when all of a sudden he felt the rope tied to his waist pull him very hard.

His body was hanging in the air… Only the rope was holding him, and in that moment of stillness he had no other choice but to scream: HELP ME GOD!!

All of a sudden, a deep voice coming from the sky answered:
-What do you want me to do?
-Save me God!!
-Do you really think I can save you?
-Of course I believe You can…
-THEN CUT THE ROPE TIED TO YOUR WAIST…

There was a moment of silence; and the man decided to hold on to the rope with all his strength.
The rescue team tells that the next day a climber was found dead and frozen… His body hanging from a rope. His hands holding tight to it

ONLY 10 FEET AWAY FROM THE GROUND...

It's a tragic story and hopefully not true, but it illustrates a point. Do you put your confidence in some "rope" ? Or can you trust God with those things that are beyond your control ? Why don't you let go ? God has great and marvelous things in store for you. Cut the rope and simply trust Him.

I think its time for me to do so.

The Road Not Taken

2008-10-23T02:24:00.007+06:00

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood and I--
I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

- Robert Frost

I think i kinda like this template!!

Lord Venkteshwara's Temple at Malibu

2008-10-17T00:42:00.000+06:00

So one fine morning, me n my friends went out to the Malibu beach ... just for fun and on our way back, we thought of taking a different route, and that's when we found Lord Venkteshwara's Temple ....

In June 1997, several dedicated members of the Indian Community from the metropolitan Los Angeles met and resolved to build a Hindu temple. As a result of their hard work, the temple was incorporated as a non-profit religious organization on August 18, 1977 in the state of California.

This temple is one of the largest and most authentic Hindu temple in the western hemisphere.

Bond - Explosive

2008-10-15T00:59:00.000+06:00

2008-10-13T18:56:00.000+06:00

Yes!! finally some progress. So, last week i was asked by Lucman (PS: Wednesday, September 17, 2008 blog) to write a mission statement for his organization. He asked me to call Humayan Gohar (General Musharraf’s “In The Line Of Fire”, ghost-writer) and take the details. Unfortunately, the columnist was leaving for China and asked me to call him by the end of this month.

It seems everyday our Country is facing some new challenges; less power supply (meaning us not having 6-8 hrs of electricity), 31% increase in electricity tariff, increase in food prices, more suicide bombings. Apart from our internal affairs, now United states is attacking our northern areas!!!!! ..... i mean, u say it and we have it.

Every Country went through some revolution and i think we are at a verge of going through ours.

GK questions .....

2008-10-06T14:02:00.000+06:00

Some FUN GK quesions.

What is the expansion of YAHOO?
What is the expansion of ADIDAS?
What does "baker's dozen" signify?
The 1984-85 season. 2nd ODI between India and Pakistan at Sialkot- India 210/3 with Vengsarkar 94*. Match abandoned. Why?
Who is the only man to have written the National Anthems for two different countries?
How was Agnes Gonxha Bojaxhiu better known?
Name the only other country to have got independence on Aug 15th?
Why was James Bond Associated with the Number 007?
Who faced the first ball in the first ever One day match?
Which is the only country that is surrounded from all sides by only one country(other than Vatican ) ?

Our Little Babies ....

2008-09-30T01:03:00.000+06:00

My Mom and Candy

My Brother and Jazzy

Don't really know their names ... This is where we got candy from.

Smoky!!!!!!!

Smoky keeping an eye on Jazzy!!

Food for the Soul

2008-09-26T21:44:00.000+06:00

"Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent," Victor Hugo.

My current TOP TEN:

Bond - Explosive
Linkin park- Shadow of the day (I think they sound like U2, even more reason to like this song)
Andy timmons - A night to remember
Rascal Flatts - what hurts the most
Soul assylum - Runaway train
The fray - How to save a life
Tinstar - Far Away
Daniel bedingfield- If you're not the one
Blind Melon- No Rain (w/Dave Matthews Band)
Eric Clapton- Cocain

Courtesy of my brother in law and few findings on my own.

Battle between heart and mind!!

2008-09-26T02:22:00.000+06:00

After I completed my tenth grade, and on the day of my convocation my Principal delivered a speech. Now, at that time, a lot was going through my mind; excitement for the last day of school, sadness for not seeing my friends everyday, over whelming feeling for my next step in life …… and as I was going through all these emotions, our principal said one thing that stayed with me ….

She said, “Starting from today, throughout your life, you will face a war between your mind and your heart ... And your mind should always win”.

My mind always lost that battle ….

Death toll in Islamabad's blast rises to 40

2008-09-21T01:35:00.000+06:00

To all those ppl who think they are preachers, who think that their religion is everything, who think they have the RIGHT to kill!!!

FUCK YOU ALL !!!!!!! We are humans before we assign ourselves to any religion.

To me, there is no such thing as religion, to me religion was created to make boundaries for ppl, we were given hell and heaven to do good and avoid evil. Just like kids are told to do good, so that they can get reward, and if they do bad, they are punished. As simple as that!!! Today's law and order was religion for ppl back in old days.

More ppl are killed in the name of religion than any other reason. TODAY, I'm not against war ... I'm against Religion.

Im on a ROLL!!!

2008-09-19T16:53:00.000+06:00

Arite ppl!!! Back in school days, there were few things that use to make me laugh, one was designing clothes (i use to say "psssh ... wats the BIG DEAL???) and the other thing was Photography!! (its just "Click Click" and photoshop ... )

But NOW ... my perspective about both the fields have changed .......

What you see in the Pic is my horrible sketch, trying to design a Fancy top. Now its not just sitting there on a piece of cloth ... ladies and gentlemen ... this very cloth will be used in making this design happen. I had to go through 15 - 20 pieces in order to get the perfect color that would go with this work.

(i know my brother will kill me for this .... )

Please try and ignore my brother and concentrate more on the backdrop and the lights. This took alot of time (As I am not a professional photographer and therefore have no access to the right equipments). We used, a red and black bed sheets (for the backdrop), two white bulbs (for white light), few duppattas (to limit the amount of light that was required in every shot).

My dear friends i present you my first baby step towards starting my clothing and natural stone jewelry business!!!! N i swear on ALL MY LORDS!!! designing clothes is not a piece of cake, and photography is just not click click click!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Our ground work is 20% complete, i have designed our Logo, name for our product and the Brochure. All i need is someone to make our website, we know where our market is, but def. need help with spreading out the word before it actually gets out there (I'm sure i can somewhat rely on u all) .

Wish me Luck!!!

2008-09-17T15:46:00.000+06:00

So, as i mentioned in my last blog how restless my minds been, i have finally figured out what to do..... :)

Two days back I called up a Politician/host of a late nite show and asked him if there was a way to form some sort of platform for the youths of Pakistan, where they can be taught, and be groomed to be the next leaders of Pakistan, where they can be given an opportunity to sit in the senate and national assembly and see how things are done there. I did manage to give him few ideas i had in mind, how to screen the bunch who were interested and pick the one's who had the most potential to take that responsibility.

My reason for calling him ... well, coz he is the MOST UNBIASED person that i have ever seen. He is all about PAKISTAN. His latenite show is about calling politicians and asking them what they are planning, and then he takes live phone calls from average joe's and take their questions and make the politicians answer. He can be very rude to those who don't deserve this nation’s respect.

Anywho!!! He asked me to call him in next ten days, as he is already working towards forming an organization that will help the new generation in getting to their goals in life; IRRESPECTIVE to their Political views.

My comments on such an organization ...... something is better than nothing. I was asked by him to be the representative from Karachi. :) So wish me luck!!! Will def. keep u all posted.

My God Damn Conscience ...

2008-09-11T13:01:00.000+06:00

Today if you open up any news website, the top ten stories will be about wars, hunger, deaths, and on religion. There is soo much happening around the world, in your Country, Your City and even around your neighborhood that I think its hard not to notice.

From my childhood, i have always thought about the very purpose of our existence. Why are we here? Why was i born? I see many people around me, doing there 9 to 5 jobs, coming home to their family, wearing nice trendy clothes, listening funky music, enjoying the nature, watching movies ............ i mean doing everything in their life and not worrying about these questions. I sometime wonder that maybe they do think about these things but never mention or think loud about them. They getup in the morning do their daily job and at nite feel good about themselves.

I tried doing that, and i failed!! Badly!!!!! For me, going to work was a drag, as i use to think y am i doing this??? To earn some bucks... Maybe send some money home ... and then wat??? Maybe do this for the rest of my life ...... n that's when i use to feel all suffocated!!! I use to n still feel angry to myself, that why can't i be and think like an average person!! Y do i have to question myself again and again that there is more to life then just this.

I need a purpose in my life that would help millions!!! How do i do that?? Be a writer? i suck in writing ... it takes me forever to express my feelings, and also i think i am not doing justice to my thoughts when it comes to putting them down on a piece of paper. (See!! how complicated i can get)

ERGH!!!!!! Who am i??? y do i get worried if something is happening at another continent .. Or anybody's house.... y do i feel i should do something about all the happenings around the world, y do i feel responsible......

Home-Remedies

2008-09-01T13:40:00.000+06:00

Somebody told me that kitchen is one place where you can find solution to all the problems. Lets see:

Asthma:

Asthma treatment using Honey
Honey is one of the most common home remedies for asthma. It is said that if a jug of honey is held under the nose of an asthma patient and he inhales the air that comes into contact with it, he starts breathing easier and deeper.

Backache

Backache treatment using Garlic
The most important home remedy for backache is the use of garlic. Two or three cloves should be taken every morning to get results. An oil prepared from garlic and rubbed on the back will give great relief. This oil is prepared by frying ten cloves of garlic in 60 ml of oil in a frying pan. Any of the oils which are used as rubefacients, such as mustard oil. sesame oil, and coconut oil can be used according to one's choice. They should be fried on a slow fire till they are brown. After the oil has cooled, it should be applied vigorously on the back, and allowed to remain there for three hours. The patient may, thereafter, take a warm-water bath. This treatment should be continued for at least fifteen days.

Burns

Reduce the temperature of the burnt area
After a burn, the very first thing that you should do is to reduce the temperature of the burnt area. Put lots of chilled water or dip that body part into chilled water for 15 to 30 minutes. Apply honey to the wound once you have washed the wound properly. It will prevent infection and will heal the wound. Papaya contains enzymes that help to remove dead cells from the wound. Aloe Vera is good for treating burns. Cut some fresh aloe Vera leaves and put it on the burnt area.Once the wound starts healing, break a capsule of vitamin E and pour the liquid on it. This will prevent scarring. Applying lavender oil is also found to be effective for burns.

Cough

Cough treatment using Grapes
Grapes are one of the most effective home remedies for the treatment of a cough. Grapes tone up the lungs and act as an expectorant, relieving a simple cold and cough in a couple of days. A cup of grape juice mixed with a teaspoon of honey is advised for cough relief.

Dark Circles

Dark Circles Natural Cure at Home
Home remedies for dark circles are considered to be the best healing method. It is natural way of curbing the dark blemishes under the eye which will not cause any harm to the skin.
1) Application of a thin sliced cucumber on top of each eye for 15 to 20 minutes, twice a day, relieves stress and cools down the eyes.
2) A mixture of almond oil and honey should be applied on the affected area every night before bedtime. You will see a remarkable improvement in two to three weeks.
3) Consume at least two to three liters of water on a daily basis. Water is a very essential remedy in this case and it flushes out the toxins present in the body.
4) Tea bags are known to be very effective in curing dark circles. A cold tea bag should be put on top of each eye for 10 to 15 minutes everyday.
5) Make a paste of fresh mint leaves and add a few drops of lime juice in it. Apply the mixture on the eyes and the dark circles for 10 to 15 minutes everyday and see the difference in two to three weeks.
6) Rose water is considered to be a natural coolant for the body and has been an old home remedy for generations. Apply two to three drops of rose water on a cotton ball and gently massage on the affected area of the eye for five to six minutes. You will see the result in two to three weeks. This method is considered to be one of the most effective cures for dark circles.

The dark circles treatment should be started as soon as possible to avoid it from increasing.

Fever

Remedies for reducing body temperature
Drink lots of water to compensate for the loss of body fluid. This will also help to reduce the body temperature. To immediately reduce high body temperature, boil powder of 2 to 3 tsp dry roasted fenugreek seeds. Strain the water and add a drop of clarified butter to it and drink. Drink juice made out of sweet basil leaves twice or thrice a day. Prepare linden tea by boiling 1 tbsp of linden flower in 1 cup of water and drink it hot. Brew willow bark tea and drink it by taking small sips. Willow bark has some aspirin related compound. If you are not comfortable with it then use black elder.

Interesting ....isn't it??

Complicated Life

2008-09-01T01:43:00.000+06:00

Few of us have this tendency of making our life miserable and complicated. And then, there are others out there who do this job for us. I FIT IN THE FIRST CATEGORY (unless somebody things the other way).

Im at a stage in life where i SHOULD know exactly what i want to be and what i want to do ... BUT ... that's not the case. As, i want to do everything and want to be everything. A photographer, a guitarist, a singer, a chef, radio jockey, disc jockey, a politician, a social worker, a lawyer ...... is it possible in ONE life? does that make me any lesser to a person who knows EXACTLY want he/she wants?
For few ppl, maybe the answer will be YES! but for me, its a BIG no no!

My argument is, if i pick one line and live in it, then i don't get know whats on the other side of the fence. :) .... i know the idea is CRAZY but not wrong. I think its a CRIME to not to think BIG!!!

We have one life .... one single life .... you either live a life of an average "Jo" or you live like "Malcolm X" or any of those influential people.

THE DECISION IS YOURS!!!! i know wats mine. (SO!!! stop asking me, what i want to do with my life)

Dalai Lama

2008-08-17T16:34:00.000+06:00

The 2008 TIME 100 World's Most Influential People

Leaders & Revolutionaries: #1

Dalai Lama: By Deepak Chopra

What does he think of the human race? "We are the superior species on Earth but also the biggest troublemakers," he once told me.

The most inspiring thing he ever told me was to ignore all organized faiths and keep to the road of higher consciousness. "Without relying on religion, we look to common sense, common experience and the findings of science for understanding," he said.

To whom, then, does the Dalai Lama turn for inspiration? It's not a person but a place—beyond I and thou, beyond self and nonself. The wonder isn't that such a place can be found. The wonder is that one man makes it look so easy.

Quote by William Shakespeare

2008-08-16T01:53:00.000+06:00

Hell is empty, And all the devils are here.

The Tempest, 1. 2
English Dramatist and Poet. Born 1564. Died 1616.

You can look at life in two ways ...

2008-08-14T18:05:00.000+06:00

You can look at life in two ways:

Either This ..... :) Everyday - By Dave Mathews Band.

All you need is
All you want is
All you need is love.
All you need is
What you want is
All you need is love.

(Really cute video)

Or ... :S Aisi Taisi - by Azal The Band

System ki Ghulami Kiun Karen
Darr Darr Ke Kaahey Ko Maren
Pesa Hai Paas
To Kiun Udaas
Maar Thokarr
Duniya Ki Aisi Taisi

(im crazy abt this song and i would ask u to be cautious, as this song is highly addictive)

What a Month. :)

2008-08-01T00:45:00.000+06:00

What a Month :)

So its been almost 5 years since we all last got together. By we i meant by my parents including all my siblings.

Below is a quick list of how things were in last 14 days:

July 18Th appi came wid Hibah at 5 in the morning. We picked her up from the airport and came home by 8. Then at noon she got up and i went out for shopping with her. Then we took a quick stop and picked up the bride(my sis) from work and went to Tariq road, for some more shopping and came home by 10 p.m. Then me appi hibah and baba went out to see our aunt and came home by midnight. :S

On July 19Th i and appi got up at 10 in the morning for some more shopping :S and came home by 4 p.m. meanwhile my brother and his friends including my dad went to the airport to pick jeej and noni. then in the evening the groom parents arranged a small dholki at their place, so went there and stayed till 2 or i guess 3 in the morning.

On July 20Th Appi left for her susral with Hibah. So i got up at my own time and went out for shopping with the bride.

On July 22Nd we went for the Mayoon/Mehndi rasam at Faraz bhai's place (groom). And then on the very next day we had our side dholki. on 24rth we had mayoon and mehndi rasam at our cousins place. and then on 25Th the wedding ceremony was held.

Now in between all this me n my brother and umair were practicing for a medley, and our cousins worked their asses off and danced on 22 songs (yes!! 22 songs, they practiced for a month).

Saturday 26Th was a lazy day and on 27Th we had the Valima dinner. :)

It doesn't sound all that .. but really!! we had soo much last minute shopping and on top of that appi was leaving on 30th so in less than 2 days we had to get the gifts and lists of things that she decided of taking from here.

CONCLUSION: I HATE SHOPPING AND I CANNOT LISTEN TO BILLO RANI ANYMORE!! (random ..... very random) :)

The bride and the groom went out for their Honeymoon on the 31St and now noni is leaving with jeej on 2nd Aug.

One Art by Elizabeth Bishop

2008-07-04T01:09:00.003+06:00

The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant to travel.
None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.

--Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

Losing something is and always will be something difficult to cope up with BUT by the end of the day one learns and masters the art of forgetting.

However, Losing a love one ……

Interesting!!!!! Mona Lisa on Microsoft Paint.

2008-06-08T16:08:00.000+06:00

Tick Tock Tick Tock ......

2008-06-03T14:30:00.001+06:00

Tick Tock Tick Tock ......

Stop!!!
i am not ready, i am not prepared,
what will i do? who will i meet?
i feel scared, so many things in mind,
i cannot decide, with all this noise!!!

Tick Tock Tick Tock ......

I said STOP!!!
I am clueless, my mind is empty,
I have no faith, and no one for me to decide,
with so many confusion
i cannot let another minute go by!!!

Tick Tock Tick Tock ......

no! no! you don't understand
I know i will find the right thing to do,
but i need you to wait, just wait for a while,
i have so many questions, what do i what to be? Who should i trust?
Should i go with my mind? or should i listen to my heart?

Tick Tock Tick Tock ......

God!!
No more i can take this,
This noise, NO! Stop it!
Tick Tick Tock Tock
I want my freedom!
YES!! you hear that? I want my Freedom!!
Tick Tock Tick Tock
I want my freedom from you!!

(no sound)

This is IT!
I am no slave, and nor will i ever be.
I will live my life, not on your every fukin' beat!
I have no reason to out run you,
And so i will ask this much of thee.
Ask for you to leave.......

By Khumar
.

No More Xanga.

2008-05-24T18:01:00.000+05:00

End Of Xanga!!!!

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